Tomorrow

I’ve found love again!

I’ve put earnest money down on a condo in town. 

I’ve got a new job working from home and making a difference.

I’m healthy, happy and thankful -- Life’s good!

Then why am I anxious and a little bit sad?

     “You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart.”  -- Jeremiah 29:13 (NIV)

Ah, that’s it! Time to write, time to hear from God. For me, writing is a form of prayer, and it’s long overdue.

     “Peace I leave with you; my Peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” -- John 14:27 (NIV)

I feel like I’m on one of those flat escalator things at airports (moving sidewalks) with one foot on and one foot off. I move forward -- slowly, easily, smoothly, almost no effort at all -- and great things happen. But that stubborn heart of mine is holding onto yesterday, with one foot firmly planted on the non-moving part, bulky baggage still in hand. I continue towards my departure gate (or maybe it’s my arrival gate -- could it be both?), but the stretch is getting awkward and uncomfortable. I was never a gymnast, and this heavy straddling act can’t possibly end well.

But how do you move forward all the way? Why is it so hard to just let today be today and tomorrow be tomorrow, especially when today is really, really good? Why is it so hard to just be happy to be led by the Spirit?

As I think about this dilemma, “re” words come to mind. “Re” as a prefix means “again;” “back to an original place or condition” (English Language Learners Dictionary).

The resilient but wistful human part of my heart that lives in yesterday wants to…

Remain
Return
Re-do
Rewind
Replay
Remember

I love the house that Joe and I built. I love my neighbors. I Iove the hike behind our house along the creek, even when the sheep come in the Spring and the Fall and poop landmines all over the place. I love seeing the elk dotting Blacktail Mountain as I gaze across the shimmering lake with its fishermen, paddle boarders and boaters. I love lounging outside in the corner of the house, the warm sun blanketing me as I daydream. Lazy and daze-y, I love watching the clouds make their slow journey across the blue sky, content to go wherever the Wind takes them. I love thinking about Joe.

I’m grateful for a cherished past. I’m lucky, and I know that. The people and the places I’ll always love have shaped me into the person I am. Because of the past, the brave and joyful human part of my heart knows the Truth…

I can relinquish my life to God every day and go where He wants me to go.

My relationship with Him leads to renewal, which is the act of doing over again; the act of bringing something back to life.

I am re-born.

I realize my past is like the horizon. It’s brilliant and alluring, and the glow of it can warm and nourish me. But no one has ever been able to reach out and touch its boundary. That’s OK, because I love, and I am loved. Love’s radiance gives life. Love is never beyond reach, and it’s a place where everyone can stay.

With Love beside and inside me, I will leap with faith onto that moving walkway, hands free and heart open. Tomorrow’s only a day away, and it’s gonna be great.

     “Watch for the new thing I am going to do. It is happening already -- you can see it now! I will make a road through the wilderness and give you streams of water there.” -- Isaiah 43:19

     “Take delight in the LORD, and He will give you the desires of your heart." -- Psalm 37:4

Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs
And the sorrow
'Til there's none! -- Tomorrow by Charles Strouse and Martin Charnin